the saddest moment of my life :(

The saddest moment of my life is when i found out that my Uncle Art(Arthur Wuest) passed away 2 years ago. he was married to my father's sister, Betty Wuest. Uncle Art was one of the funniest, liveliest, smartest, and funnest person i ever knew. whenever i saw him, when i visited him and my aunt in chicago or when he visited me here in saipan, he was always up for some fun and excitement. he was old, but he still could still things that people in their 30's could do. he still walked long distances(at a very fast speed), he could still go hiking, and a lot of other fun stuff that people in their 80's cannot do.
nobody knows how he died though. he and my Aunt Betty were in portland visiting their daughter, my cousin, Amy. They live in an apartment complex that has a pool up on the roof for the people in the complex to swim in. he went up to the pool by himself to go swimming, and when the rest of the family arrived, he was in the pool, dead. nobody knows if he drowned, or if he had a heart attack while in the water.
when my dad told me that my uncle had died, i could not believe my ears. it was impossible. he seemed quite healthy considering all the things he could do that my aunt cannot do anymore. he most likely died of a heart attack in the pool, but i still couldn't believe it. it couldn't have been true. but no matter what it seemed, or what i did or didn't believe, it was. my Uncle Art was gone.
he died in the middle of the school year and i was not on vacation, so i couldn't go with my dad to illinois for the funeral. but i did get to visit his grave when summer vacation came. it brought tears to my eyes to be standing right next to him, but him not really being next to me. standing next to his grave, looking at his tomb stone reminded me of when i was first told that he had died.
shortly after he died, while my dad was in illinois with my aunt for my uncle's funeral, i looked up at the sky and saw a very bright star. i knew it was Uncle Art watching down over me. and every night since the first time i saw that star, it appears in the same spot every night. my uncle was one of the best persons i ever knew. i still miss him and love him so much to this day. i still believe that that star right above my house that appears in the same spot every night is him, watching over me.

three things I want to receive on my high school graduation…… (if I graduate)

When I graduate from high school, my mom promised me a big party with ALL our friends and family. We’re gonna have a pool party at our house. If I had to choose three things to get after graduation, that would be tough. I think I have everything I want and need right now, but if I had no choice but to choose, the first thing would be a first class delta plane ticket to lima, peru.

I was in peru for almost a month during the summer of 2009 with a group of high school students from my school for a group trip. I had the best time. I made a lot of great friends that I still keep in touch with. We got so close that was devastated to leave. I promised them that I would go back to see them in per before I go off to college and it would be like a dream come true if I really got to go back. I miss my friends there so much. That would be my first pick.

Next, I would like to get my dream car-the Toyota Sienna, 2011 model. My family had a van when I was little but my parents sold it and got a smaller car because I became the only child left in the house. (I’m the baby) So my parents didn’t think we needed a minivan anymore. But a few years ago, a new model of the Toyota Sienna (minivan) came out and I fell in love with it. It was so spacey and comfortable. But of course, my parents didn’t take what I wanted into any consideration seeing as I couldn’t drive and we didn’t have to many people in the house. But….now we have my baby nephew in the house who needs a lot of space with his car seat, I need a lot of space for my school things, and we need a lot of space to be bringing things to our friends’ places for get togethers-which we have all the time. Plus, now I can drive. There is a new model out-2011 model. That is the car I want. But if it is absolutely impossible to get, I would settle with the latest model of the Toyota Highlander (highbred).

And finally, the third thing I want for graduating from high school is money. I will be going off to college soon and I won’t be able to be supported the same way as I am now by my parents. I will, of course, get a job to support myself in Hawai’i (which is where I plan to be), but I need a head start don’t I? I have a savings account right now, but bank accounts take a while to fill up and I need to spend some money sometimes. So, when I get money from graduation, I’m gonna put it in my bank account and let the interest build up. That way I’ll be even better off at school. But, if I can’t get any of the things I want, I would settle for the big graduation party my mom promised me with my closest friends and family at the pool.

beautiful me

I don’t like to make myself sound proud so I don’t usually write things about myself to show off. But there is 1 thing that I know of that makes me unique and beautiful. Almost all the people I know are aware that I have a medical problem. I have a condition called mild epilepsy. This means that I have mild seizures.
These seizures happen when I am overly stressed out, feel very uncomfortable, or under a lot of pressure. But they don’t happen every single time I feel those emotions. It only happens once in a while. This started up when I was 10 years old. It was worse back then and my family and I had no clue what was going on or happening to me. But while I had these weird “episodes” happening to me, I didn’t stop doing all the things I love to do. This is what makes me beautiful-I don’t let my seizures get in the way or stop me from doing the things I love to do.
No matter what my friends and family say, I don’t give up. I know they are just trying to care for me, and sometimes I have no choice but to listen and give in, but I will never give up fighting. It’s been 7 years now that I’ve been struggling with this problem but I have to say that I’m not suffering. Having to deal with this condition of mine is what makes me strong in the heart and mind. I do get tired of it sometimes and once in a while I have to let out my emotions. But 99% of the time I keep all my feelings about this to myself and don’t complain.
I don’t like people having pity on me or feeling sorry for me because I have to go through this kind of stuff. I’ve been to doctors, seen specialists, had different things tried on me, taken different medications, but I still have to live with it. I’ve been waiting for 7 years to be free from this condition but, since at the moment, noting much can be done, I just have to live with it. Sometimes I’m ok with it and sometimes I just can’t take it. But I never give up and never let it get in the way of what I love to do-beautiful me

if i could teach my son only one thing......

If I could teach my son only one thing, it would have to be about the building blocks of life. After high school-first comes college (with a good major that is fun and will lead him to a good job), then a job that will lead him to a good future, then a family that he can have and raise with his good education and his good job. I would teach him how important it is in life to have those 3 things. If my son wants to live a happy life, he would have to have a family of his own. I would show him that by making him see how happy I will be with his father, my husband. I do not want him to be lonely for life and I hope to have grandchildren. I will raise my son well and make sure he has a good childhood to make him see that he will also be able to raise a son of his own the way he was raised-the way I raised him.

College, job, family. I have seen parents who teach their children the same things, but harshly. This is a bad influence on the child because he will either end up raising his child in the same harsh way, or not want to have a family at all. I will let him know how well I was raised by my parents and how being raised by my parents lead me to a good and happy future. I know that if I did not have the parents that I have now and if they did not teach me everything they way they do, I would not be who I am today. I would not be as happy as I am. I will tell my son this and do the same for him as my parents do for me now.

The most important part of teaching my son this is about family. I consider all these things that I have mentioned one thing to teach my son. But if I had to choose one very specific thing out of this whole lesson it would be about family. The most important thing in life is family and I would let him know that by showing him how much I would do for him as his mother. I would sacrifice anything I have for my family and my son will need to know that too. This is the key to that one thing that I could teach my son. Without parents, we would not be able to have a great education. Without family, we would not be able to have a happy and fun childhood. Without family we would know how to make good decisions in life and all this leads to going to college, getting a job, and raising a family.