can you keep a secret?

Have you ever had a secret you couldn't tell anyone? Either something someone told you and made you promise not to tell anyone else or something that you and only you know about? How does it make you feel to keep this secret from everyone around you. Being around a lot of people while keeping a secret puts me under pressure to want to tell someone-at least one person-what that secret is.

For me, the two worst things about keeping a secret is being around the person or people the secret may be about, and keeping the secret away from my family. There are also times that I want to tell a secret I have to my family(particularly my mom) but I worry about what they might feel or think about it and ask why I didn't tell them sooner. Most of these secrets are not about good or pleasant things.

I once had to keep a secret from my parents for another family member. I wanted to tell my mom so badly, but I promised my other family member that I wouldn't, and that they be the one to tell that secret to my parents. This secret had much to do with my parents and I'm around my parents all the time. It made me feel uncomfortable around them because I knew something that they didn't. My family member kept putting off the time to tell my parents about this secret and it made me more and more anxious.

I kept asking and asking when the secret would be revealed to my parents and I was always told, "soon." I kept feeling more and more uncomfortable around my parents and I needed to let it out. But I made a promise not to say anything, so I didn't.

Finally, this secret was revealed to my parents (it made them furious) and I felt so much better that I didn't know something they didn't know about anymore. I felt that I needed to tell my parents that I had known about this secret the whole time they didn't because I still felt so guilty for keeping it from them in the first place. So when I told my parents not the be angry with me or my other family member for keeping the secret for such a long time, I had to apologize and say that I wish I could have told them myself, but it wasn't my responsibility. It was my other family member's.

I cannot say what this secret was because it was a personal family matter, but it made me feel just the same as I would If it had been any other secret, but just more serious. I really do NOT like keeping secrets. Especially from my family. Do you?

if i could met a famous celebrity...........

If I could meet a famous celebrity it would be Kristen Stewart. This is not just because she is the main character in 2 of my favorite movies, but because she has done a lot of other work that I had not known about until I found out more about her career after she started playing the role of Bella Swan in the films, Twilight and New Moon, based on the stories of my favorite book series, “The Twilight Saga” by: Stephanie Meyer.

If I were to meet with Kristen Stewart we would go to Hollywood and I would take a walk with her on the Hollywood Walk of Fame and head towards a Starbucks. I would ask her questions like how it she felt the first time she started acting, about the previous work she has done and I would ask her how it feels to be famous with fans and cameras following her around everywhere she goes.

The first question I would ask her is how she knew she wanted to be an actor when she was younger. Then I would ask her about her feelings while being on the set for the first time; if she was nervous, scared, excited, or all three.

Next I would ask her about each of the famous motion pictures she’s already starred in before Twilight and New Moon. One of her movies in particular that I would ask about would be the movie, Speak. I watched the movie and found it quite good. It is not the type of movie I usually like to watch, but I found it interesting because it is different from most of the movies I like.

I wonder if she ever just wants to be away from the crowd and be alone with her family which I’m guessing she does. Does she ever get overwhelmed by all the things she has to do before, after, and while filming a movie?

But……the most important thing I would ask about is what it’s like being the star character of two of my favorite movies, Twilight and New Moon, and why she decided she wanted to play the role of Bella Swan in these movies. (And how it feels like to kiss Robert Pattinson! =)

The last thing I would ask her is if she has ever thought that she had taken the wrong path in her career. I wonder if she has ever thought of changing her mind about wanting to be an actor. If she says yes I would say, “That would have been a tragedy because Twilight and New Moon wouldn’t be the same without you on the screen!”